What a whirlwind life is...

I turn around and all of a sudden, the baby that I was JUST pregnant with is going to be a year old. I don't know how to feel about this. Lots of things have changed in my life in the last few weeks. I am so emotional over all of them. I told my mom that I keep having dreams about breastfeeding (I weaned Avery almost 2 weeks ago) and my mom said "Of course you do, you did it all day long every day for almost a year." I didn't really think about it that way. I guess what I'm a little bit sentimental over is, even though she's getting bigger and learning and doing new things, I will never have these baby days with her again once they're gone. Common sense, yes I know, but there was a time that I couldn't wait for her to sit up, then I couldn't wait her for to crawl, now we're waiting for her to walk. Every day is new for her -- she wakes up excited to reach whatever milestone that day might hold. I share that excitement for her, but in some ways, I cringe at the thought that she is not always going to be my baby. It's inevitable that this little being I love so much is slowly becoming more and more a part of the world and less a part of me. It makes me want to cry!