My So-Called Life

Ahhh, I remember the days of going out late at night and staying up until the wee hours of morning. It's been too long since I've done that.

Last night I went out with my girlfriends on a whim. Just decided at 8pm that I was going to shower and meet up with them after telling them I had too much to do and couldn't come. (I hosted a shower here for very close friend of mine today and last night when I left I had about 60% of the work left to do...)

I left the house last night with no plan for when I'd come home and made no promises to my husband that I'd be back in time to feed the baby. There was milk in the fridge for her and he could deal with it this time. It was SOOOOO his turn.

I stayed out for a few hours, had a couple of drinks, talked to some old friends. I think I took this stuff for granted way back when when I had these freedoms. I never realized how freeing it is to go out for an evening and not worry about anyone but yourself. It's been much too long.

So I'm adding to my list of New Year's Resolutions. Once a month I'm going to put the girls to bed and go out and do whatever the hell I want to for a few hours. I need the escape. All those years I partied it up and never thought twice about how I might not have that freedom when I "grew up." Now I'm all grownded up and in need of a barstool and a drink and a few hours of nothing but... nothing!